Perspectives...

The world hit you with a blow pretty early in life. Self esteem issues, pressure to be an academic star- from family and friends, standing up to the image that the society wants from your parents and they from you, the list just seemed endless. And you, you are lost in the midst of this rigmarole  What is this? Am I here to just stand up to expectations from different quarters? Will I ever be successful or worse, will I ever be "deemed" successful by these prying eyes. And I am not even sixteen yet!  Its hard to be where you are right now. From where I stand, its probably the hardest time of your life. Its also the most pivotal. Because sadly, this is where your self image is forming, your ego is strengthening and the saddest of all, fear is rising. These three together will ensure that you carry a baggage, a baggage so heavy that choosing happiness will be a distant dream. You will always feel less than. Even when you are perfectly able, you feel that you are not up to

You are quick respond. You brought yourself up that way. Through the years, you will encounter many moments where people will hurt you, diminish you with their words. Oh there will be so many of those that's its not even funny! And you will quickly establish that this is the way the world works. People are hurtful, ungrateful and you have to give it back to them. Otherwise they will not learn. No response to slights is an indication of weakness and to keep your standing in the universe(read the society) as a powerful girl, i need to come back with a vengeance  Yes, I am not a violent person by nature but I cannot stand someone look down upon me and the least I can do is stand up for myself.  Over the years, you will execute many such back handed responses with elan! And for a second, the moment feels very powerful. You feel your chest rising and then... diminishing. The feeling is quick to fade. Every time you indulge in these quick responses, you will find yourself drained o

So I have been fascinated by clouds ever since I one day looked up at the sky and felt like they were speaking to me. May be 15 years back. I think they are the most fascinating element of nature the human race has access to and they haven't really got their due. It almost feels like we take their existence for granted...." some white stuff floating around in a blue sky ", EXACTLY! how crazy fantastic is that....some white stuff floating around in a blue sky. But we collectively have forgotten how to really appreciate the small little things in and around us. Maintaining the stronghold of the ego within us takes up so much of our energy.  On a clear day, I love how the clouds selflessly hold on to the hew of the various colors of the sunset. Not seeking any attention to themselves, just happy to be there under the glory of the effervescent Sun. I am sure they have a spirit and they know, they know the truth. Its almost like they are the constant witness to the drama