Perspectives...

Yes...its been a decade. It still doesn't seem long. The journey has been of immense learning, its made me what I am today. Don't get me wrong....I have a clear identity of myself in my head(too much of it sometimes!) but I attribute most of my good qualities to this relationship. And it has not been rosy throughout, brought out the devil inside of me many a times, made me cry in frustration, have sleepless nights, doubt my future...it broke me down....broke him down....but then we rose up like the phoenix....and the cycle continued. And now...nothing breaks us...nothing will. We always have each other. Through many years of very selfish living with each other, each wanting our own little things from the relationship, we found selfless love. Its a peaceful place...

I have been watching X Factor USA very religiously for the past few months. Something got me hooked. Today the top 5 performed and blew me away.....I was awestruck...not just by the raw talent but also their passion. How does one conjure up that amount of intense passion for something? What drives it? It seems to be coming from the guts....its magical to say the least. It almost seems like they are doing what they are meant to do in life and THEY KNOW IT! I can only imagine how liberating that might be. I have been wondering about the purpose of life...purpose of my life. There is no luck yet. And it is frustrating to say the least. I asked Nitesh about his purpose and BAMMM came the reply....it was crystal clear. It took him no pauses at all. I stared in wonderment. Its a gift no less. I am reading a lot more, thinking more....it has caught me off guard...this sudden urge to know what my role in the bigger picture is. Like everyone else I go to work, do a good job at it on most days,