A life of purpose...

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I have been watching X Factor USA very religiously for the past few months. Something got me hooked. Today the top 5 performed and blew me away.....I was awestruck...not just by the raw talent but also their passion. How does one conjure up that amount of intense passion for something? What drives it? It seems to be coming from the guts....its magical to say the least. It almost seems like they are doing what they are meant to do in life and THEY KNOW IT! I can only imagine how liberating that might be.

I have been wondering about the purpose of life...purpose of my life. There is no luck yet. And it is frustrating to say the least. I asked Nitesh about his purpose and BAMMM came the reply....it was crystal clear. It took him no pauses at all. I stared in wonderment. Its a gift no less.

I am reading a lot more, thinking more....it has caught me off guard...this sudden urge to know what my role in the bigger picture is. Like everyone else I go to work, do a good job at it on most days, keep short term career goals and work towards them. I would like to believe that I am a good daughter, sister and fiance. I take care of my health, eat well on most days. I am god fearing and always try to help someone I can. But something still remains....there is something inside that tells me there is something more.

Its driving me crazy but I am thankful for this feeling....there is nothing that discourages me more than my comfort zone and knowing that I know everything.

What are you born to do???

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