Perspectives...

...on 7th of June. It actually flew by....it only gave me a whiff...but what a whiff it was. The outpour of love from my parents and relatives was heart warming. My dad actually bought a card and scanned the copy and emailed me....wow! They also had a small party at home where they a cut and made merry...for my birthday!Its silly and great...but its so very sweet. But it was my husband of 4 months and boyfriend of 10 years who completely took me by surprise...there were a string of surprises for me that all took great effort to plan...I am sure. The details are ethched in my heart. Its moments like these that makes me halt and think of the years, the decisions, the choices....I got my family who love and adore the life out of me...hell yeah...I turned out OK!!:D

My mind and heart went through immense turmoil yesterday. N and I were invited to a wedding of a new friend. I had met her once in a bar and although we were surrounded by libations of different order, we connected over tales of  ilish mach  and  kosha mangsho . There was a connection….a bong connection:) Their marriage was decided based on the alignment of stars and fell on a Monday! N and I decided to not go..one it was a weekday and then the temple where they were getting married was 50 miles away! I thought over it for the whole night…I am like that…matters of heart and emotion cause me a lot of distress. We had attended their sangeet last Sunday and in one passing moment found her  mom(who is btw very Bengali…) looking at me…she had never seen me before so it was kind of strange but I gave her a smile back. I wanted to give the bride a  sindoorer kouto  but since the bride was so busy, I decided to walk over to her mom. She held my hand and did not let go off it till I walked