Random thoughts...

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The tension in the arm,
 sensitivity at the base of spine, tinkle at the back of the leg,
The twitched brow, the curved smile,
 relentless falling back on a feeling, a feeling of sad,

 What are you trying to say?
Are you trying to come in or get out?
Is anyone there....

Living in a haze, rejoicing in the same, 
 the all pervasive void, waiting for the episode to end.
Glimpses of enormous peace, 
 and a tsunami of restlessness and hollow.
Balancing the precarious act,
 while waiting for the next glimpse,
 the glimpse of eternity, the glimpse of being one with the glimpse....


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