Perspectives...

My husband stomps out of the bathroom, while venturing out to his first ever firing range experience - "I have decided that I am not going to hold myself back anymore". We both looked at each other for a good 20 seconds. I felt a shift. Although, a firing range experience is not entirely what springs me out of bed, it is as esoteric as kundalini yoga or chakra cleaning is to him. But I thought about it for a long time after he left. Admist my books, journal and pens - thinking gives me immense joy. What did he really mean? I knew exactly what he meant but I wanted to play this out more, a lot more.  I have known my husband for 15 years now, we were two little kids who had a thing for each other. 15 years and counting, we had learnt newer and innovative ways to hold ourselves back. We learnt new fears, newer liabilities, new things we could lose, relationships that needed us to adjust, jobs that required us follow a directed route in lieu of "everything under the su...

I am going down this road   Asking the questions of life that i never set out to ask,  The questions are coming to me, just like the answers are,   Its splendidly weird, extremely bewildering. My soul stirs with each question and with each answer,    there is a peace that i think i am searching for in everything i do. So I keep asking, i will keep asking,   till the questions end or I become one with the answer. Its not a race but an ecstatic exploration.   one that will never disappoint,   that much i know...

A: there is a separation,    a slight crack in the door, there is light coming through,   i see it, i see it! B: Or..or is it just you coming through? where there is separation,   there is awareness, where there is awareness,   there is light. A: Ahhh, so the light was always there,   it was the crack I was waiting for! B: Sigh...

The tingling energy     That which you cannot touch It resonates with every cell in body      And purifies it one by one Whose love it O'Mother     Is it yours, is it mine, is it everyone's?

On this path effort never goes to waste, and there is no failure.  Even a little effort towards spiritual awareness will protect you from the greatest fear.                                                                  The Bhagavad Gita(2:40) The vagaries of life are splendid. There will be numerous people to please, expectations to be met, successes to be had, money to be earned, house to be built, the greatest car  to be bought...I could go on and on but I will still miss out on the expansive but extremely superficial outer world. The Gita calls it  maya  and it has no less splendor than a grand opera. The more twists and turns, the more emotions it conjures, the more interesting the show is for the audience. So why did I venture outside of the show?...because I was not having fun anymore....

We need to find God, and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature -- trees, flowers, grass -- grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence. We need silence to be able to touch souls.                                                                                                        - Mother Teresa You are inherently a fiery one. You are always ready to take it head on, irrespective of who i...

Will I know it when I see it... Will it tell me who it is when it meets me... Will I know it is all there is... Will there still be something more...

When I tell people I am Gemini ..there is always a hmmm....usually it is to honorarily recognize the dual nature of this particular species. There is an instant skepticism  because somehow I must be hiding my true self...I have to, I am a Gemini after all... I have been a spiritual journey for some time, not knowing I was in one till I read something that prompted a duh! The purpose of life and the questions pertaining to the reason of my existence, has consumed me for a while.   Nothing I did spurred it or so I believe and thus began the journey of reading, listening, reading more and listening more. I am not even 10% there yet but what I have gathered is that we all are Geminis. We all carry a dual self....the I or the Self and the Ego. The Ego is what we experience 95% of the time and I in glimpses. The duress in this world  is a stunning example of the consequence of this imbalance. We are lost in who we want to be and frustrate...